Muse Fled...

Gah this is sooo frustrating. I have some lovely posts to respond to, writing I want to do, and even on my novel, nothing is coming. Usually my muse works reliably well, I mean one day I churned out twenty six replies, granted that was nearly two years ago now but still.

Today, nothing. I have several posts up, just waiting to be responded to and nothing will come and work for me. I'm half thinking I might just try plugging out plot points of my novel, if nothing else. I mean its just my first manuscript so things will change. Part of my issue though is that I am a perfectionist in all I do, including work on my novel. I'm pretty happy so far that there is no 'filler' in it so far, nothing that''s unneeded really. I would hate to add some of that in now after months of good strong work on it.

Maybe I should world build some...Gwiv could use a little fleshing out in some area's, been contemplating temples and how religious order's actually work as pertaining to the Gods. Its a multi god world, lots of gods so different people would worship differently but everyone follows the Divine Quart, Meria, Mother Earth and Water, the Gatekeeper (the Heavens and such), Deril, Goddess of Love and Illusions, Solious, Flame/Sun God and the Divine Judge. I really love them all <3

I finally got my replacement stylus pen for my tablet yesterday and did some sketching but the art muse seems to have fled as well. Its probably all in relation to the amount of pain my body has been handling the past two days, and let me tell you it sucks, massively. I'm such a creative person that when something takes that away from me I struggle and its really easy to get frustrated and a little depressed. I need to be productive, otherwise I go stircrazy and start self loathing and thinking I'm worthless/useless.

So yeah, muse not behaving = bad.

And this blog isn't overly eloquent either...lovely. So trying to not feel like crap today but its so hard not to when it hurts and I can't seem to do anything that I actually like. Talking to Master is helping some, we are talking about the Air race of Gwiv, who are completely and totally wonderful <3 I'm really looking forward to that story, the one that will explore them and such, The Desert Dragon. Have yet to start it though. Maybe when the muse is actually nice again I will.

Going to stop rambling now.