Settling In

So I am in California now.

Safely back where I 'belong'. And it does feel like I belong truly; I can say honestly that I have never been made to feel like I fit in so easily, so quickly before in my life. And with me having once been a foster child who moved often that is saying something. Not even my aunt and uncle in Texas come close, truly. Shaine is my new roommate and I adore her <3 She is just so much fun and so understanding and we fit.

I landed in the evening on Tuesday, worn out from a long day of traveling and incredibly nervous, after all I had never met her before, and I was meeting her mom and her whole family too. We drove back to their house through the heavy rain of a winter storm and Heidi was at the house, making dinner for us. Apparently Shaine had pumped Master for information about my favorites of things and Heidi had set about making a meal just for me; Shaine helped me get my stuff back into the bedroom and then we all four sat down to eat, Shaine's father was working, a professor, so it was just us females to chat and eat and relax and it was wonderful. We headed back to the bedroom then and I got to cuddle with both Shaine and Heidi, in the middle, and just have girl talk for hours while we relaxed and enjoyed it. I haven't had so much girl time in so long! Its was a treat.

Yesterday was mostly settling in, grocery shopping and then spending time with Master online when I could. It already feels like home here, like I am welcomed, adored and wanted. I got hugs and a kiss on the forehead before bed from the mother, one of the cats pesters me to play with her and I just love it.

And I got a hot shower! Yeah, I know a little silly to be so happy about but after a semester at my aunt and uncles where the upstairs bathroom didn't get hot water and I had a ton of cold showers I was a happy girl this morning.

I'm settling in in more ways then one and I know that coming back to California really was the right decision to make. I'm even going into the city this weekend and I can't wait. Life is fitting into place. Sometimes I'm sad, that I won't be moving in with Master this summer like we had talked about, that would have been so ideal on so many levels. And then on others it would have been such a -bad- idea. I'm not ready for it, neither is he and I have so much to do before I could ever really do something like that. And yet things are still good there, strong, we have worked out kinks, gone over a year together and are still deeply, madly in love. I am blessed.

A good thing though is that I have a plethora of choices now, one friend invited me to go up to Michigan for the summer while I take classes, I have my family to see, time to spend with Master and a chance to go to Europe! I went from being homeless after graduation, from feeling lost and alone, to having several 'homes' and hearts opened to me. I am truly a lucky, lucky girl and I am grateful for it.

I want to go to Europe, so badly, so that might just happen....who knows, but for now its California and classes start soon and oh boy will I be in for a semester then. I'll write again soon.