The Time Between

The time between...

I titled this blog that for several reasons, the first being of course the time after Christmas has passed and before the New Year is upon us. Its the time between an outpouring of love and family and joy, and a fresh start. Both are wonderful, both are needed, both are equal. The time between.

Christmas was yesterday for me, some people have many days of Christmas with large families and many big family dinners. I've had that before, thanks to foster care, one year I had as many as eleven Christmas's all contained from the 19th of December to the 27th, and yes, there were a few days of more then one 'party'. It was a bit insane. I have to say I liked this year, the simple relaxing one, being home with my own family. Of having a home even for a short while. It gave me a chance to reflect back on the past eight months of living here, of getting use to living with family, with people that actually weren't going anywhere, whether I was sweet or angry. It's been interesting, and full of road bumps, little things here and there. I have grown so much in that time, I like to think, more comfortable in my own skin, even if its not to the degree some people have.

I am grateful for my time here, I will cherish the memories, but it too was a time between the rough first year of college and truly becoming a grown up who could take care of myself. I can handle my own money now, I plan my life without really talking to anyone else about it, at least not family wise, I always talk to Master. But it was a good time between.

The big time between I'm focused on right now is the time between Christmas and the time I go to Master, the afternoon of the 28th, and then to our anniversary, one year on New Years. I can hardly believe that we made it so far, and in just a few more months we'll be living together! This spring semester is a time between as well, I'm going back to California to have some time to focus on school and on being myself around people my own age, to make sure that I'm ready to move in with Master but I truly can't wait. My life is moving forward, things are falling into place and that makes me believe they are meant to be. Lets hope I'm right.