Overload

Wow its been awhile. I guess I've been avoiding self reflecting, which I really shouldn't. I tend to be happier and healthier the more I do this sort of thing, so here I am again.

I have made it past midterms, I have spent a month with Master and learned all the delights to be had there. I've gone to karaoke, sang on the stage with other people, kissed a girl, kissed a guy (not Master too! but with permission), spent Halloween with a Domme just getting to know her. Talk about a busy month. And in that its just been go go, keep going forward, and I've realized that that's not really always good for me. I keep adding more and more to my plate, and now I'm on overload. Such fun. At least I'm not loosing it as bad as I did last fall, that's one thing in my favor.

On midterms, I got an A on my art history test, big shock there huh? Not really but still happy, especially considering I got the name wrong in one of the names for my essay. And a B on my film midterm, which is surprising, because honestly that would be my least favorite class. However its my photography class that I have the lowest grade in, a C thanks to my lack of interest in it. It really does make my eyes glaze over sometimes and I can't seem to get things to click in my head. Oh well I can just try to get caught up and make it better.

A sad point to my mind is that I've gotten so caught up in moving forward, in getting things done that I've stopped having fun in my painting class. My last few paintings haven't been all that great. However I intend to fix this, to make it better and recapture my enjoyment of it. Hopefully I can. I have some good ideas for my next long term painting, hopefully they translate well. I need to recapture my enjoyment in what I'm doing, rather then sinking into endless repetition and going half out of my mind. Lets just hope I can. I'm always so focused on going forward, always so impatient for things to get better or for my skills to improve, I really do need to learn how to relish the journey. The impatience of youth is so not on my favor right now. However I am doing some wonderful writing and creative processes. I think its partly that I just got bored with my classes, past the half point its no longer as new and interesting, its more, 'oh, more of the same.' and I've really got to fix that attitude. Spring is going to kick my ass to be sure! I have hard classes left and right.

On the note of spring, I am going back to California though, so I'm excited for that!